Friday, April 24, 2009

She makes me pray.

There was a time when I was a believer.
There was a time when I used to pray.
There was a time when I used to obey.
There was a time when I used to trust.
There was a time when I used to love.
There was a time when I had hope.
There was a time when I had ambitions.
There was a time when I was determined.

THEN...

I did my Engineering.

Now,
I dont believe.
I dont trust.
I dont obey.
I dont love.
I have no hope.
I lost my ambitions.
and I DON'T pray.

Now these decisions are not out of frustation and resentment. These are concious decisions made by me
after researching a lot on these subjects(which I did while I was supposed to study Electrical Engg.). Specially about the
theisis of god which I strictly dont believe in and I have stopped praying since then.
but!!

But,
There is this girl, that I remember, from my schooldays.
who makes me bottle my common sense and uncork the champegne of my imagination.
she makes me believe, that she is the one for me.
she makes me fall in love everytime I see her
she restores my faith
she revitalizes my ambitions
she restores my hope
and above all
she makes me pray! (definitely for her.)

2 comments:

sweetsmile said...

this is definetly very different frm ur earlier posts...
btw, y have u stopped believing in god???

JHA_RAVI said...

As I said earlier as well, this decision of mine was not because of any frustation or resnetment, wherein I just looked around and found poverty, hunger, filth, hatred, war, murder, suffering and concluded that there can be no god or even if it is there, he sure is incompetent and I should not pray him.
But actually the decision was based totally on rational reasons unlike other decisions in our life where we just "believed" someone or something and followed that path.
Now there are many reasons for me to not believe, but i'll state one.(Now here lies another paradox- How can you prove that something does not exist?.... Ok!you didnt get it. I'll elaborate it a bit, suppose for example, Someone walks to you and says- " I have seen a flying horse.". To that you say- its not possible, because horses dont fly! But the other person argues that-" I have seen it, prove me wrong!" So is it the the business of sceptics to disprove received dogmas rather than of dogmatists to prove them. Thats why it is said that "Burden of proof lies with the believer, not with the non believer". So if you believe in god, you prove that theres one, rather than asking me the reason to disapprove the theory. :))
I'll try to define the God hypothesis:
"There exists a superhuman, supernatural intelligence who deliberately designed and created the universe and everything in it, including us."
Now because of a great person named Charles Darwin we know that any creative intelligence, of sufficient complexity to design anything comes into existence only as the end product of an extended process of gradual evolution.Creative intelligences, being evolved, necessarily arrive late in the universe, and therefore cannot be responsible for designing it. God in the sense defined is a delusion.